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Poop on a popsicle [23 Oct 2005|09:47pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Damn it's been forever. I don't use this thing so much: maybe because it's just another website to go to..or maybe I've been busy? Eh who knows these days. Everything seems to be compressed into one big thing. I guess it can be considered to be a good things, since the days go by fast. But I've noticed the faster that it goes the less time I have to be in college. It's scary to think that in less than a year I'll be a junior in college and have to be an adult. I really have no idea where everything is going to come to a point. There is so much shit I'll have to do when I get out of here: find a place to live, a decent job and get my masters. Shit man I don't want any of it yet. AT ALL!!

School has been school. I officially changed my major to Art History and I'm thinking of teaching so I think I should talk to my advisor about some education courses that I need to take. I'm taking care of all of that before class on Tuesday so I can figure it out. I don't have to register until my brother's birthday, so I got a little time. But not alot. I'm not sure what's going on: I just don't want to have nothing when I get out of here. Other than these things that worry me, everything else is okay. James and I are still great and he's having a lot of things sorted out in his life now (A.K.A. a job, a license and car etc.) He and his family are moving near his Aunt's house, which turns out to be a 20 minute drive from my house so it's not too bad. It still sucks though, because I can't take a bus to his house anymore. Oh well. I'm getting my license soon anyways so what does it matter.

I've decided to be frank at this point instead of holding back, because where does that get you? I'm tired of being critized for my music taste/or distaste. I made the mistake of telling someone that I liked one song by a shitty band, and now I'm considered a hypocrite when I say "I hate____". Fuck that and fuck you. It's hard to say that since I considered you a great friend, but seriously. Do I take the cheap shots that are available to criticize you?? No, because I'm better than that and because I don't see a point in it. You want to talk about being hypercritical? How about you bitching about people and not saying a damn thing to them about it? Yeah, about that.

Now that THAT is out of my system: I hate "the future". It sounds so scary yet so tempting. Hmmm. I guess it is time to grow up. Heh and I thought I was already there. Guess not as much as I thought

(pour me a drink)

bored [29 Sep 2005|08:41pm]
Your emotion is love.You are a very passionate
person and care for everyone epecially your
Your lover if as very lucky person and when they
look at you people see the true meaning of

What emotion are you(anime pics!!!!!!!!)
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Fairytale love
Fairytale love... is what you
dream of, and hopefully will find. You are a
true dreamer and a creative wonder. You're
sweet and shy, but don't take shit from anyone.
You are hoping to one day stumble over another
world and there meet the prince of your dreams.
I wish you the best of luck, and remember:
"No dream is ever too big, no dreamer ever
too small"...

Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?
*cough*rate*cough* ^^

What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~
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(4 shot me|pour me a drink)

[22 Sep 2005|11:20pm]
Fuck shit cock chaos cumguzzling gutterwhores!! Bob Saget!! Die in a fire and live there as you suck on manipulated monkey testicles!! rub my ass and call my sally for I will shit out your retinas and make you my bitch!!

Fuck your ass with a rubber spatula and shit out cookie dough till your ass turns green and bleeds battery acid! I am your god now you frozen mongoose turd and I shall rule you till the day your nuts drop!

If you read this, God you are cool

(pour me a drink)

life [16 Sep 2005|11:20am]
[ mood | confused ]

Things have been different since the last time I wrote in this thing. School is looking up. My Geography class is getting better, mainly because he said that no one will fail. I have a gurantee in a sense but that takes too long to explain. Paintint is overly frustrating but I think it will get better, if I just work with it instead of against it. Art history is...art history. It's not hard and it's interesting to me so I think it will be alright. I'm actually thinking of changing my major to Art History but I have to talk with my advisor first. Library Skills is a bogus class, due to the self-explanatory material but eh. And then there is Spanish...no problem there. So yeah I guess I should be happy because classes are fairly tolerable and I'm liking them for the most part.

My parents come up this weekend for a day:tomorrow. I'm glad I get to see them. I miss them so much, more than I'd care to admit. I haven't seen my Dad in a long time. I'm looking forward to spending time with them and going home the 29th so I can see my brother, my sister my nephews and nieces and my boyfriend. James has been working at UPS and seems to enjoy it so I'm happy for him. I miss him and hope that he will come to see me as soon as possible. Nothing feels the same without him. I'm questioning myself, my friends, my aspirations, everything. When I'm with him I never do that. I always feel secure and believe in myself and what I'm doing here. Now I'm not so sure what to think, or do for that matter. I'm just whining, I know but I've gone so long with listening to other people's shit and putting my own problems aside that I'm sick of it. Call me a bad person, call me selfish even, fuck you I don't care.

I just feel lost, that's all. Lost beyond a shadow of a doubt. I wonder what good I'm doing being here. I wish I could be more like my mother. She is always caring of others but finds the medium where she knows how to take care of herself too. God I am a dork.

(4 shot me|pour me a drink)

... [10 Sep 2005|08:45pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

I haven't updated this thing in awhile but I feel like I should. I'm back here at school. It's not like it used to be. I love my roomate and I like all but one class I'm taking, but I don't feel as productive because I'm not working. It kinda sucks but I also don't want to work in a way. I feel like I have a lot of time on my hands but I don't in a sense. I just miss James really bad. I feel so lonely here without him. It's hard watching My roommate getting letters from her girlfriend and me just sitting here waiting for him to come online. I know that getting a letter isn't the end of the world, but it still means something to me. My sister can have her baby any minute now and I'm excited. It just sucks, because being here I feel like I am missing everything

Jesse and Derek got evicted today from the apartment. Jesse is going back home and I don't like that. He was one of the first people here I connected with and who understood me but now he's leaving. He said hed come visit but it's kinda hard when you can't drive in New York state heh. I helped Derek move into his new apartment and its nice. It's just not the same feeling, ya know? It's been a somewhat depressing day in taht sense. I also got a nasty letter from fat bitch Courtney. (For those who don't know her, picture Sarah Frost only 80,000,000 pounds heavier and snottier. I finally told her to fuck off and that no one liked her, because no one does. I feel better for doing that but she said something that really rubbed me the wrong way: she said I was selfish. If there is one thing I have done in my life it has been trying not to be selfish and I did think that I wasn't. Now I'm worried that I am and I don't want that. I guess most of you would say don't let her get you but it's hard. It's hard when you value another person's opinion so much. I don't really value hers but its a just something that bugs me.

So yeah, school is good, I miss James, I miss work and I hate people. I also hate feeling like i'm doing nothing. I don't think anyone really reads this anyways, which is kind of good because I feel more like I'm venting and not being judged in a way. Who knows...

(6 shot me|pour me a drink)

Sigh [21 May 2005|11:39am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Anger, Frustration, Fury, sorrow, pain, sensitivity.....

Few words are available to describe what I am feeling right now. And the reason for this? You.

Love is a bitch..it makes you insane, vulnerable and every little thing that can jepordize that, whether it is small and insignificant to the naked eye, or whether it is huge as hell, kills you inside. I'm not holding back in this entry, because I can't seem to say this to your face. So maybe you will read it and understand better, or maybe you will disregard it. Either way, I need to vent and get this out now, or it will slowly kill me.

I'm hurt. And why might you ask? Because of her and you. I know you have told me before that you don't like her for many reasons( most of them obvious to any person who sees her). And yet, you decided to have a lengthy conversation with her from the moment she walked in that door. I know you told me you would "ignore her if I wanted you to". But you don't seem to understand that I can't tell you to do that. I love you and would never tell you to do something that is your own personal choice. I'd never make you do something just because of my own personal reasons. That's not what love is about and I hope you know that, and I think you do. So instead I said I don't care. For that I am sorry because I lied: I do care.

I care because I know how she is like. I don't know her as well as you or your sisters. But I know that she is a strong willed person and will step on everyone to get what she wants out of life. I know the messed up things she has done based on what you have told me and what others have. And based on these facts of information, you expect me to brush it off my shoulder that she is talking with you for a long period of time ( for the second time mind you)? The first time I met her, you and her were in the kitchen alone talking for what seemed like forever. And I know what flirting is baby and I could hear it in the infliction of her voice to you that night. And you don't see anything wrong with that: maybe because you don't think of her that way or maybe because you don't care. Either way it hurts me in the end.

I'm not hurt from jealousy. I know you well enough that you wouldnt do anything deliberately to hurt me. However, what does hurt me is the fact that I am non-existent as soon as you and her talk. I hate that. I hate how I feel this way more than anything. I hate how I am overly sensitive on the subject and that I am hurt and bothered by this so much. But I can't control it..I can't help it. I love you so much that I get hurt when my boyfriend talks to another girl.

Before you judge me on this, put yourself in my shoes. Let's say BJ or Stan even was at a party of my sister's and as soon as he walked in the door, I talked with him the whole night. We had somewhat indepth conversations without acknowledging you and then we walked outside, just the two of us and talked for what seemed like hours, leaving you inside. How would that make you feel? I can only imagine how you'd feel, because I would never do that to you. I know you didn't think you were doing anything to hurt me because you wouldn't have done it. But it hurts regardless

Remember when I said I couldn't sleep well. That is because the dream I had was about you and Danielle. You were doing exactly what you did last night and I decided to actually say something to you about it, and you ended up screaming and yelling at me and then dumping me..for her. The dream proceed into this elaborated life with me and you near each other but unable to talk or communicate in any other way other than seeing each other. Overlydramatic and unlikely..maybe, but it was still vivid and hurtful nonetheless.

I'm sorry that I didn't say this to you on the phone earlier today but I rather not talk about this when I don't know how to word it. I still don't know how to word this exactly, hence this. I hate feeling like this so don't think I'm doing it for attention from you.

(5 shot me|pour me a drink)

Bored thanks carol! [10 May 2005|11:32am]
You are sad because of your grief

Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.

What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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You are the warrior anime girl.You are the type
that can start a fight and win.You are very
strong and can beat anyone up (but just don't
^_~) and some people can be afraid of you but
alot of people admire your strength and want to
be just like you well the people that want to
fight.You can defend yourself very easily and
can probably handle some kind of weapon.You
have a short temper(like me)and get angry
easily but you can be really nice at times
^_^and once a fighter always a fighter.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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~*~*~*~ LOVING~*~*~*~
Your loving nature makes you wonderful to be
around. You are the type of person that accepts
people for who they are and they in return of
your good heartedness, accept you right back.
You are most likely a romantic at heart. With a
sensitive soul and probably a broken heart from
the past, you don't usually trust people. You
have probably been hurt by someone you love or
loved dearly which makes it hard to confide in
others. Easy going and romantic, fun and
lovable, you have a great personality. You are
very well liked in the general world that
you're in.

Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana

You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
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You are a Mermaid, who sits on a rock in
the sea, looking and watching all humanity with
curiosity in your eyes. You have a two-sided
personality! On one hand, you revel in your
freedom and often prefer to live in your own
private dreams.

On the other hand, humanity
intrigues you and you love watching on. You are
actually very kind at heart, hating to see
people hurt and despise injustice! You probably
have one or two special friends, who mean the
world to you!

Also; you are probably quite
political, wanting to see justice done in the

You are quite the dreamer, needing
freedom and personal space to dream your little
dreams. You love to escape into a book or some
good music and just drift away.

Some of your
good points are that you are sensitive,
compassionate and a freethinker. Your bad
points are that you may come across as cool and
aloof to others and probably have a tendency to

You are the ultimate dreamer with
a kind, but troubled heart!

Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!)
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Recap [08 May 2005|11:10pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Sigh, I hate al of this. It makes no sense. I understand that people have problems with others and that's fine. Life is not perfect and people always have animosity to others. I just wish that people would not resort to violence and/or harsh unnecessary comments to make them feel better. People say alot of things out of anger, and people also say things they don't mean. But please: why should it matter?

If you really hate someone and what they stand for then fine. But why would you let it overtake your life? Why would you waste your effort and your precious time just to make them feel like shit and have them retaliate with violence or more nasty words. Life is way to short to dwell on the people who ironically mean "nothing" to you. That let's them know that you do care, hence they continue to provoke you. Because they know it drives you nuts and it gets you going.

Based on events that I have endured in the past I know that I would be called somewhat hyporcritical. However, I for one have not exposed myself to the vulenrability of others in this department. I haven't in a very long time. Maybe being far from home I realize that time is precious, maybe I've grown up or maybe I've just become less ignorant. Whatever the case may be, I know now that life is too short and that I for one do not want to waste it. I have had some amazing experiences here and i have met some great people too. Sure there have been times when I've wanted to choke someone but hey thats life: It can't rain all the time.

Don't ask where any of this came from, I'm just feeling philisophical. School is done minus finals this week. I'm psyched though cuz I come home soon. I can't wait to see everyone I've missed (hoping that a recent comment didnt rub anyone the wrong way.) Oh well. For once I spoke my mind and didn't aim agression towards anyone so fuck it. Well, I UPDATED!! :)

I already know that it isn't my place to say anything so please don't try to remind me of it already. And I hoenstly don't want to know. I just wish that instead of provoking the situation everyone can go on with their lives and do what makes them happy, without the expense of others. And I say that to EVERYONE that has a problem with someone else. It is easier and better in the end to just concentrate on what is important: life.

(3 shot me|pour me a drink)

meh [04 May 2005|08:25pm]
Alright I'm updating. School is alost over wooo hooo! Finals are next week and I am prepared more than I thought I'd be. So WOOO!!! Erika is gunna be my roomy next semester which is kickass cuz she rocks my world. Wanna hear the best part? SOME people won't be here next semester! Anyways I've been busy as fuck and I have been trying to pack up as much shit as I can. I come home the 13th which is fucking awesome.And James is comin gup here tomorrow and staying till Saturday so I get to see him. Even though I saw him last weekend which IS OKAY TUB O LARD!!!!

Last weekend was great minus the whiny and bitchyness of some people.

i dunno really what to type and i rather not write more cuz I'm not in the mood.


I am tired and sick too. I cant stop coughing...hack!!

(2 shot me|pour me a drink)

You happy?? [19 Apr 2005|10:16pm]
So I'm updating now because SOME PEOPLE GET BORED AND NEED SOMETHING TO READ!! :) Anywho, some new things happened and some not so new but eh ill tell it anyways

So I went home last weekend for my brother's fiance's baby shower. It wasn't too bad actually. It was beautiful weather and nice to see my brother. He looks like grizzly adams with his beard lol. I also got to see my nephew who by the way is the most ADORABLE BABY IN THE WORLD!! My sister is having another one and she looks pretty good too. Brennan is so much bigger since i've seen her and she looks happy as well. My family is doing pretty well too.

I have a job to come home too thank god. It's nothing fabulous but its money that il be saving. I'm also getting my license soon and a car too. WOO!! School is almost done which is very exciting. I have a few drawing finals to do but im doing excellent in all my classes. I also got a letter that said im on the dean's list which fucking rocks. I feel like im doing better here then i ever was in high school. 3D sculpture is not my favorite class in the world but im doing pretty well in that too so go me. Art history seems to be one of my best classes along with statistics so i hope my GPA will go up at least 2 points. I like my 3.0 but I want it to be higher.

So Courtney got a kitten and its staying in her dorm room. Yes she shouldn't have one and it is cute. However if she thinks that when she goes to class imt aking care of it she has another thing coming to her. I got enough shit to do for myself I cant take care of hers too. By the way she is back to her oldself. Im not liking this medication shes on again. The older one made her happier and better all around, but she couldn't sleep. Now she is awake more bitchy. Its not my life or my medication so I can't have a say in it but i personally think she should go back to it. Oh well.

AHHH class tomorrow..sleep now...

(3 shot me|pour me a drink)

I stoled it from you carol!!! [06 Apr 2005|01:05pm]
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Favorite ice cream
Favorite season
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Is romatically in love with you:goththingmm
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My Lovely Two Cents [05 Apr 2005|07:42pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

So yea, I've been reading people's shit on there journals, and i gotta tell ya: everyone is fucking stupid. I find it hilarious that people who haven't been in school for many years are still causing high school drama. It makes you wonder if anyone really grows up. I can't help but laugh at the morons who say " oh your a slut" or " oh im better than you"...lol you people are fucking hilarious...

..yea im aware that its none of my business, and yea im aware that im prolly gunna get nasty comments from some bitches who think they are "better than me". But the thing is this..I don't care and I find you all pathetic anyways. So go ahead and waste your breath and try to offend me or get me started..I DARE YOU!!!!!...

Anyways I hope that everyone else is having a wonderful life and that they aren't buying into this bullshit. I also hope that everyone is getting there life on track and if they are then I say good for you, because if you attempt to get your life together than you already deserve to be happy. So I am proud of you guys who are doing well for yourselves..and you should be proud of yourselves too.

As for you guys who thrive on bringing other people down and making them miserable: I laugh at you and your pathetic excuse for a life...

Again I am aware of how none of this is my business but I just had to say something because i find this all childish and I think instead of ruining other people's lives, they should be living it.

By the way, I love everyone that is a current friend of mine on here or not on here. Whether I have talked to you recently or not, whether we aren't as close as we once were or we are close as hell, whatever: each of you has made my life better and each of you deserve nothing but happiness and prosperity.

ok enough sappy shit..Summer is so F-ing close to me right now and all I can do is smile because of it..counting down to May 13th WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo

(pour me a drink)

poop [05 Apr 2005|12:10pm]
[ mood | calm ]

So yea..school sucks.

Went to Long Island for the weekend and spent it with Erika. Met a few of her friends and partied at her house friday night. It was fun but i played too many drinking games too fast and ended up passing out at 1 am lol. I'm a dork. I love her mom, shes the sweetest woman and shes so cool. I got a guitar pic with Dimebag Darrel's face and signature on it. Kick ass for me. Hehehe

I get to come home the 15th for a baby shower on saturday so that's nice. I just cant wait till this semester is over, so I can work and relax and be home with everyone. It makes me sad that Mitch Hedberg is dead and I never got to see him..FUCKERS!!

I'm rooming with Erika next semester so I am looking forward to next year. However work sucks and I need a car when i get home. Let's hope Ill get one..

Welp..life is there and im alive so woopedee doo doo..heh doo doo

(2 shot me|pour me a drink)

Thanks Ed [02 Apr 2005|10:44am]
[ mood | crappy ]

If you read this,

even if i don't speak to you often,

post a memory of me.

It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,

just so long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you...

(pour me a drink)

bored again [31 Mar 2005|11:13pm]

I am a d8

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

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bored [31 Mar 2005|10:52pm]
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) been arrested
(x) smoked
(x) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
(x) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
( ) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone (i'm a biter.. sorry)
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
(x) gone on a blind date
( ) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
(x) seen someone die
(x) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x)Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x)Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) done hard drugs ( once)
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now

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Friggin idiot I am [31 Mar 2005|10:33pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I wish I knew what my problem was. One minute I'm happy the next i'm depressed as fuck. I wish I knew what to do to change this. I just feel alone..i feel emotionally drained and mentally worn out. I feel like i've been worrying over nothing and that I am the only one. I hate feeling like i'm going insane when the other party isn't. :sigh: What is my problem?

I might as well lay everything out flat right now..I am in love with my boyfriend, this distance is killing me in everyway possible and even though in my heart I know it's not true, it feels like I'm the only one. I'm just too sensitive lately...I wish I wasn't but what can I say, I'm a girl. I feel like with each passing day i'm losing another part of him and myself...Maybe it's because I've never been with someone for this long or maybe it's because I'm not used to not having full control of my own heart...Whatever the reason is I feel like a pety child and in a way whether it sounds stupid or not, unworthy...maybe im just going insane slowly...

All I do know is that I've been crying on and off for the pass 3 days and it seems no matter how much I think I get it out of my system it doesn't work. The reason I don't tell him about this is because I'd sound like an idiot and I'm afraid that if i do say something then it won't be taken seriously or that I'll be committed lol....I wish I didn't feel like this but above all I wish I was home just so I could cry in his arms and feel warm and loved....
.....I need a hug...

I know I sound crazy but what if im not..that's my problem right there..I have too much doubt in myself and my self-esteem or image or whatever the fuck u want to call it...I guess lvoe scares me to an extent..especially when life has already shown there are no gurantees...all I know is that I love him and that wont change...

Now that I bored everyone and that i feel a lil better..back to the movie

(pour me a drink)

just got bored [10 Mar 2005|12:15pm]
You are an evil vampire. With your deadly bite you take live all around you. You are like evil itself.
You are the most evil vampire

You are an evil vampire. With your deadly bite you
take live all around you. You are like evil
itself. *shame on you!*

What kind of vampire are you? (with pretty pics.)
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Youre Sango - Sango is troubled, and with good
reason. Her entire was killed before her very
eyes by her beloved little brother, then she
was betrayed by an evil force, and later, she
finds out her village was destroyed by Naraku,
leaving her all alone in the world. Only later
does she find out her brother is now existent
as a puppet for evil, a killing machine. Shes
very quiet and shy, not to mention a tough
fighter, but inside shes shaken and nearly
broken. She has mixed feelings and is unsure
about many things (Including her thoughts and
feelings of Miroku. or not?), and often has
regretful thoughts about the events of her
past, even if she cant control them. Shes very
determined to avenge her , and to make peace
with her heart.

Which Inuyasha character do you resemble?
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You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just

What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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White Dragon
You are a white dragon, pure and noble, you would
help humans if they desprately need you. YOu
are kind and wise with a heart of gold.

Which Dragon resides in your soul? (cool pictures!)
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You are Napoleon Dyanamite and a buttload of gangs
are trying to recruit you.

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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??Which colour of Death is yours??
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The Goddess of Stars and Hate. You are an
independent leader. Always reflecting and
pondering, you carry an air of mystery and you
are exceptionally vengeful. You are a dazzling

Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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You like the ones that understand you.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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You are the Spirit of Anger. You are every inch the
bad girl. Something happened to make you so
angry and you need to channel it out, if anyone
gets in your way, they're in for a big shock.
Friends are not essential for you, you don't
care whether they're there or not. But if you
do have friends they will be the most loyal for
it takes a lot to become your friend. You
attract people to you, so a partner is no
trouble but if they can't handle you then
they're out the window.

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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You hide behind The Shadow Mask, you don't like to
be in the spot light, you like to hide from
everybody and just be alone, you think you put
yourself in this position with your own will
but the truth is that people made you go there,
you don't trust people any more though inside
you there is a voice screaming to go out and
see the light, you look for some one who
understands the real you, some one loves you
unconditionally, if you were looking for some
one to talk to, i'm all ears.

What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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You&apos;re Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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(pour me a drink)

gawwww cock chaos [07 Mar 2005|07:01pm]
[ mood | calm ]

whoa: this is the only word that comes to mind after everything that has happened in the past few days, let alone the pass few hours. I can't wait to come home and escape all of this shit. It'll be nice to be home and in the arms of people who love me.

I'm about fed up with this bullshit and Courtney. She is all about making people feel sorry for her and im tired of it. I understand she is going through a rough time, but we have all been there. EVERYONE OF US!!! And all she does is make her problems seem more important than everyone elses. So what does she do? She uses the suicide of another person as sympathy towards herself. What is that shit. Of all the shitty people I have met in my life, I have never met anyone like her. Her good qualities are harder than shit to see and they dont nearly outweight the bad ones she has. She's self-centered, rude, inconsiderate, and just all around doesnt care about anyone elses problems. And the thing that pisses me off the most is the fact that she claims I have everything. Someone tell me how teh fuck I have everything. My mommy and daddy dont buy me new cars like hers and I don't get moneyf rom my parents at a drop of the hat. Yea she may work but you know what she hasn't a dime of that shit cuz she wastes it on pot and food for her fat face ( yes i made a low blow and call her fat). It was too easy im sorry. I just cant take this, thank god I dont live with ehr anymore because I would have killed myself. And the best part? she is leaving in the fall for some other school. I couldn't be happier for that. So tell me this.....Why can't I fucking tell her how much I hate her right now? Want to know why? Because I cant: it could push her to the edge of god knows what and to be honest the bitch is big and could prolyl kick my ass. It also doesn't help that I don't like hurting people's feelings. God I wish I had the balls to say something. I really do. SOMEONE GIVE ME THERE BALLS!!!!!

On a happier note, me and james are one year and a month :). I miss him so much. This semester was hard because I didn't go home as often to see him. But the webcamera made it easier on us: my baby is so smart. i'm getting my microphone when i come home so i can use it here too. I'm so excited to go home, even though now i have to go on saturday instead of this thursday, cuz someone is a BITCH!!!!!! Oh well the important thing is im going home. I hope I can fix this web camera though its too dark and making me mad. I wish I was better with technology. Okay now that I feel better, I'm going to do my math homework. Damn Statistics class, even though i'm doing good in the class...

"You Don't Even Know!!!!"
"Tina you fat lard come eats some dinner!!..EAT THE FOOD!!!!!"

(1 shot me|pour me a drink)

thanks carol! btw the day u and rhianna started being friends was the day i was born [01 Mar 2005|02:05pm]
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TEN random things about me:
10. I love tattoos
09. I like molson canadian
08. I have an obsession with greek mythology
07. I love ALL music
06. I despise self-centered people
05. I am excessively paranoid
04. I Love Canada
03. I'd like to visit Italy or Ireland sometime before I die
02. I like boys with long hair
01. I curse a lot

NINE ways to win my heart:
09. Don't lie to me.. ever. I will find out.
08. Don't diss me in front of your friends to try and look cool, you arn't
07. Don't ignore me, that pisses me off
06. Show me that you care.
05. Don't make me feel underappreciated
04. Don't yell at me about something that isn't my fault/problem, it makes me grumpy
03. Don't make me feel like its my fault that we can't see/talk to eachother because of thigns i can avoid
02. Be nice to me (I appologize for not knowing how to take compliments)
01. Don't treat me like shit.

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
08. Meet Vinnie Paul
07. go to the Luve and the Vatican
06. get married
05. Have an exhibit
04. Sing infront of a bunch of people and not be scared
03. Turn my body into a piece of art
02. Ride a horse threw Ireland and see all the castles
01. have children

SEVEN places I want to visit:
07. Egypt
06. London
05. Dublin
04. Rome
03. Austrailia
02. Southern France
01. more of Canada

SIX things I don't like:
06. Conceited bitches
05. sluts
04. Liars
03. Guys who wear girl pants
02. Fakes
01. the color yellow

FIVE things I'm afraid of:
05. Being alone
04. disease
03. losing those i love
02. Love
01. falling

FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom:
04. my bed
03. my computer
02. PS2
01. pillows

THREE things I do everyday:
03. mess around on the computer
02. do homework
01. sleep

TWO Things I am trying not to do right now:
02. scream
01. go outside

ONE person I love:
01. James

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